Seeing Many Worlds

On this saturday we are both feeling a little more productive than usual. We've cut down on our drinking these past weeks, and were up early to do some cleaning and work.
I am still unemployed, waiting on a call back from the Douglas to find out when I can get in for therapy.
Last week was a great week. I hardly drank and I also succeeded in placing bulimia to the side for a good 5-6 days. It was wonderful. I felt alive and free. This week has been a return to old self-destructive habits which I am scared my haunt me always. My mind is constantly on food, and how I will get over my addictions.

It is interesting to note that we both pulled Queens, and Bobby seems to have pulled a card that alludes to some of my personality traits.

Me:

The Queen of Pentacles: The One Who Sees Many Worlds

• I should expect practical help from a serious, well rounded woman
  
• Earthy, practical, sensible, and resourceful, however a sensitive side remains, an innate understanding and gift for practical magic
  
• The Queen foretells of presents from a rich relative, and a rich happy marriage
  
• Making money
  
• Health issues
  
• Harvest time after much labour
  
• Potential for pregnancy
  
• Sexual focus
  

Timeframe: One Year
(doubtedly not for the pregnancy part)

Bobby:

Queen of Cups: The Water Runs Deep

The Queen of Cups is a card ruled by Scorpio. Bobby seemed to think that many of the qualities listed described me adequately. I find it interesting that he would pull a card that refers to me.
While it seems that some of the latter traits could be accurate, I feel discouraged upon reading the first few.
It seems life skipped me when giving out the traits that make women mother-worthy. This is something, I realize, I will have to come to terms with. It doesn't bother me a bit right now, but I can imagine that as I grow older the knowledge that I will never be worthy of creating life may strike me. Or perhaps it won't - a blessing that may come along with the lack of feminine blessings granted to me. Who knows.

• Typically represents the perfect wife and mother : devoted, caring, giving, nurturing, sensitive, protective, and kind
  
• Period of creativity and inspiration
  
• The Queen foretells of a rich marriage for the man who pulls the card
  
• A loving caring sexual woman, powerful, intuitive, and intense. A good friend, implacable enemy who desires control in her environment. She can be secretive and possessive
  

Timeframe: Days